..: 2010

fredag 25. juni 2010

My tumblr

So, I have a Tumblr now.. Check it out

http://paranoianervosa.tumblr.com/

The things that shape me

5 Unnecessary facts about yours truly:

#1: I play the piano. Started when I was about 6 or 7. Play by ear and can’t stand notes.

#2: I write and that’s a thing I’ve always done. I scribble and shape letters everywhere I am. To form every thought in my sometimes messed up mind.

#3: I photograph like everyone else does these days. I love the way a picture can tell a thousand stories and words aren’t always needed.

#4: I’ve struggled with alot of with angsiety and SI ever since I started in elementary school.

#5 I have an extremely vivid imagination and can sometimes be unreachable to people around me, because I tend to fantasize alot.

More to come.. Probably..

lørdag 19. juni 2010

I've alway been the kid that really never mattered in any situation. Im not writing this to complain, but I just need this of my chest. Recently I've noticed a familiar feeling of being lonely. I'm used to it I guess, but sometimes the feeling is overvelming. I have always been the ''little one'', from my early childhood days. I'm the smallest of four siblings and for some reason I have continued to be just that, the youngest. I understand that I am what I am, but no one really wants to see that I have grown up at all. Now I recently turned 21, but still people look at me like I'm 11 or something. It kind of bothers me that no one asks for my opinion or even looks at me when I'm around. And sometimes it hurts alot. And it hurts to smile it away and pretend that everything is fine. When I actually want to scream at the top of my lungs. It's really heartbreaking being invisible and never noticed. Like no matter what I would do, people wouldn't see me. I thought I was over this fase of my life when this bothered me but now it's only worse. And now it hurts more then ever.

I'm not at all sitting here typing this, trying to get sympathy. I just wanted to get it out. Just a little release cause I'm tired of all this. Oh and no, just to clear that up, I AM NOT AN EFFING EMO! Thank you:)

Picture: Me

onsdag 9. juni 2010

In the midst of all this..I still feel empty

I've been feeling a little empty lately. Like something is missing. I can't put my finger on what it is exactly, but I now that something ain't right. Been struggeling alot with my (god damn) angsiety, so that is wearing me out and making me tired. I just have to take it one day at a time I guess. Try to figure some shit out.